2014 one of the most challenging years to date. It’s not over yet, but it’s only now I can reflect on it on a daily basis. It was hard to see such a strong man broken it really changed me, knocked me down. He’d never let the family see this side of him before, and seeing him laying there on the bed helpless and heading in for a 12+ hour surgery with a heart condition too. That scared and worried me beyond belief but I had to put on that brave face as I kept reminding myself the worst is yet to come. I felt like I had to keep it together for the whole family.
But visiting my home town this week and seeing how well dad is doing, I can’t help but soak up his bright and lively attitude towards life. This has given me the reality check I needed to put everything into perspective. Any other issues I have are a mere blip compared to what he’s had to experience. To witness his drive and motivation to rebuild his strength, and live a healthier life has really enriched my positivity bank. Then there’s the softer side of you which you have let us into, this is hands down the best thing that has happened this year! It has really brought our family closer.
Life doesn’t seem fair at times, and bottom line is it’s really the attitude you choose to take to pull through it that counts. There is always something positive to take out of any experience. Embrace and find the light in the situation, or ignore and it will eventually fester over and consume you.
Happy Fathers Day Dad i’m so happy that you are moving forward, you have lit the way for me to get back to being the joyful girl full of laughter once again.
I would like to start this post by thanking a certain friend who I appreciate so much for just getting me out of the house for a catch up and a drink. This is exactly what I needed to remind myself there are positive vibes out there no matter the situation. Parts of my life which are not ideal right now shouldn’t be casting darkness over invaluable things such as nurturing the friendships that count, and the progress made on that self-improvement/self-awareness bandwagon.
So she took me to Cloudland, it’s not Cloud 9 but it comes pretty close on Salsa night Thursdays. The décor looks luxuriously sophisticated. There are private booths surrounded by overhanging plants; there’s a waterfall, and if you look closely butterflies are encased in some of the furnishings. The crowd polishes up well too, and an extra bonus are the $10 mojito’s and margaritas!
Now back to the crowd, the suited up crowd to be exact and even on the weekends it’d be rare to find the jeans/tshirt attire in there which is what I love about it. So much that it is starting to be my regular Thursday spot. I like to use this time as a mid-week catch up with the girlfriends over a few drinks, then we mingle into the d- floor while the white trouser and matching hat man demonstrates the basic salsa moves on stage for about half an hour before moving onto more tricky moves. For the most part it’s pretty fun I get lost in the moment and feel like I’m in a dance group or something HEEEY! Hands down one of the best ways to unwind midweek….until someone stands on your foot with their stiletto heel! OMG so painful I’m still feeling it 2 or 3 weeks later! But who am I to complain when I too am guilty of doing this.
So March turned out to be the shittiest month ever!
But instead of airing this horrid piece of laundry, I will share with you one quote per day that got me though this month. These are the little bits of treasure which gave me hope, strength and the determination to stop crying and feeling sorry for myself and to realise that with every bad situation; if you search hard enough you will find the good that comes with it.
I am also eternally grateful to have such a great friend who has basically given me Tuesday Therapy sessions (food comas and laughs) to transform and translate my heavy thoughts into nice, light and fluffy dumplngs 🙂 I hope I can be there for you forever my dear, and out of all this I am so lucky to have this solid friendship with you!
Friendship’s like this are far, few and priceless!
Lets hope like hell the next few months Cloud 9 comes knocking on my door.
Life happens and slowly but surely I find myself deleting all the bright and colourfuls on my Pintrest to make way for my new moody blues (actually black) for what I think is going to hang over me for the rest of the year. I’m not a big conversationalist and my way of expression is mostly portrayed through what I wear and write.
It’s Friday afternoon, I’m stuck at work ploughing through Pintrest in search of inspiration because my shining light a.k.a fiancé is taking me on a shopping spree for my birthday!
It has been such an emotional struggle these days, I’m not my usual smiley self. There have been at least 2 topics I could, and have tried to post in the last 2-3 weeks but it’s tough to be passionate enough to post anything while in this downer bubble. I’m normally quite good at putting on a happy-brave face, trying to be strong for others, and refusing to be a wreck because I know the worst is yet to come (not ready to talk about yet), but this week and the last have been tough. So for me today I saw the UPSIDE to this new mood and it translates to new clothes. All I want to be wearing right now are colours conforming to the dark spectrum – black, navy, grey mixed with leathers, stripes and spots. It will be slow transition so I will probably need some white and leopard thrown in for balance. Sounds rather trendy but did I mention I live in sunny, beachy Australia where the uniform here is more bright, fluro, cotton candy anything and everything! Plus my Chinese background sets my default fashion choice to light and bright, as anything dark pretty much symbolises doom…
Anyway enough talk about doom and gloom. Here are my faves:
Doesn’t look so dark after all, but as I said still in transition.